Dear friend,
Ever felt broken hearted? Ever wondered when you’ll be able to catch a break and genuinely smile or laugh again? I know the feeling. I’ve been there more times than I’d like to admit. Just as the bible says hope deferred makes the heart sick (Proverbs 13:12). For the heart to be a physically small organ, it sure does hold a lot of emotions. Disappointment will leave you disheartened, weary and scared or nervous to even try to trust God again regarding a particular situation or area in your life.
The thing about pain is that it cripples us- leaves us broken and depleted of the strength to keep going. Pain of any sort has the ability to cause us to stop looking to the hills for help (Psalms 121:1-2). Pain is as powerful as a tsunami for it has the ability to destroy even the most valuables in our life such as our faith and trust in God & His promises; especially when not dealt with in the correct manner.
Disappointment not dealt with correctly causes us to turn away from God due to our screwed perception of the situation and Himself.
The devil is very much aware of the effects of pain on humans- so you know what he does? Uses it for his advantage.
The bible says in John 10:10 that his mission is to kill, steal and destroy. If you ever think the devil likes you or that he doesn’t exist, in love I say; you’re operating under the spirit of deception and delusion. Satan is not our friend. He’s a thief, looking for whom he can devour (1st Peter 5:8). His mission is to kill our joy & hope in Jesus, steal the promises of God in our lives so that they will not manifest due to our lack of faith and destroy our place of intimacy with the Lord. This is because he is aware that if the place of intimacy is destroyed, the believer becomes a lot more vulnerable to manipulation, corruption, deception & demonic attacks. You see, when pain is dealt with in the presence of God- one is able to gain insight, comfort, direction, strength and courage for the journey. When you’re outside His presence all those things aforementioned become inaccessible.
In my own personal journey, I recall experiencing such great emotional grief. It was a time where I has been accused of doing something that I did not do (and it wasn’t the first time this had happened) and due to this accusation, I faced rejection. Even as a I write this, my heart still remembers the pains of such wound. I remember spending three days weeping bitterly nonstop. I experienced anger, pain, resentment, hurt, sorrow, bitterness. I found myself becoming hopeless because I couldn’t understand the injustice. I remember blaming God for my pain, wondering how could He allow it to happen? Wasn’t He going to vindicate me because surely He sees my innocence? I would love to sit here and report that my heart has fully healed from that incident but I’d be lying. However as I’ve embarked on this journey of healing what I am learning and would like to encourage you with is that; God the Father is close to the broken-hearted (Psalm 34:18) and no, you do not need to feel His presence to believe He’s there. You may ask then why this trouble I am going through? Sis, being completely honest; it's still a question I battle with from time to time.
Nonetheless, what has comforted me in those moments was knowing He is right beside me & He is right beside you too, collecting your tears in a bottle (Psalm 56:8). He cries as you cry. His heart breaks as yours do. There Jesus is holding you in the palm of His hands, carrying your tender fragile heart with such care and compassion. As much as Jesus is a lion, He is also a lamb- tender, caring & sensitive to the hurts of His people.
If it were up to God, this world wouldn’t be as broken and filled with pain but unfortunately the disobedience of Adam and Eve brought about sin which is the root cause of many of our pains both done to us or done by us.
But even at that, if He could provide a way for our salvation through the means of his son Jesus, who says He can’t provide a way out of your pain? Bible makes it clear that He’s the One who makes a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert (Isaiah 43:19-21).
Sister in Christ, I see you. I hear your pain. I hear the cry of your heart for comfort, reassurance & acknowledgement. I acknowledge your pain and validate your emotions however I beseech you to turn to Jesus for He’ll comfort you. Maybe He’s comforting you as you read this blog. Maybe He’ll comfort you through a friend, colleague, family member, complete stranger, a rainbow or sign. God works in mysterious ways so just keep your heart opened to being loved by Him no matter how disheartened your heart may feel in this moment and remember- if it's endurable then its temporary and it shall pass!
Remember this: Abba is the God of the mountain top & the God of the valley. To every valley-there’s a mountain awaiting it so don’t give up!
Rest at His feet- that’s where your comfort & strength lies!
Love your good sis,
E x.
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